I failed

I planned on riding my bike into work today - my bag was already packed, my clothes ready but instead I tossed and turned all night and morning and will be driving in. I have been really horrible about getting on my bike so I have been wanting to ride to work to get he time and mileage in well.. Now I just feel guilty of skipping a work out and something I planned on doing. All because I psyched/scared myself of riding in the dark. The route is basic enough most of it is on the I90 trail but I have no idea how much of it is lighted and since I have to be ready to work by 9ish my ride would be almost entirely in the dark. I feel so dumb and disappointed in myself for not going and just doing it. I woke up stressing about it all night, I looked at the clock at least once an hour - which was horrible. To add to it is snowing out side right now.
I really feel like I'm letting myself (and my coach) down huge right now. I guess Bryan does have reasons to make fun of me for not doing my work outs on my own enough. Though I have been good about both my run, swim and my strength stuff (even my pt stuff). It is just the dumb bike - last year I did the pro club spin class to make it through the winter.

So I need to find a solution, I don't like spin class at the pro club (and my membership ends soon), It is to dark and usually wet to ride to work this time of year. So maybe a spin class somewhere else or get my own trainer or spin bike so I can ride at home. I could also go to work early a couple days a week (or at least when it is a nice day) so I can come home and ride outside before it gets to dark.